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AARGH!!! – Story of my Life (these days)

Well…i fell down again yesterday and had to go to the ER.  all in all, could have been much worse….Steups!!!

I was shaky after physical therapy, so it makes sense Y i fell (i s’pose)…what doesn’t make sense to me is that i didn’t hit anything, on my way down (just because of where it happened), but i have a black eye,  a bruise on my upper arm and a small one on my foot (all on the weaker, left side to boot).  i look like a boxer – with that swollen, purple eye.  It just so happened that I am off tomorrow and Friday – good thing, so i won’t be very stressed out at work, so hopefully it’ll heal properly.

 
My eyebrows are still HOT!

they did a CT Scan and everything looks good, so don’t have to worry about that – it’s just that i’m a Tyson look alike for now and a few more days to come i s’pose.  It appears that the swelling moved down my face too (my face looks a lil distorted there)  – my cheek is now swollen but the side of my head isn’t.

argh!!! “happy” “happy” times!!!

Ramblings

i hope that a good Easter was had by all; i had a good one myself.  It wasn’t a rough Lent, but i tell you, i couldn’t wait to sink my teeth into some meat.  In fact, can’t wait to go to Eclipse to dig into some Veal Osso Buco and lamb meatballs that they put on the menu duuring Lent – mmmhhhmmhhmmm.  Everytime i went during Lent, i had to just hang on to the aroma emanating from others’ plates and imagine how both dishes taste.

i mentioned last week that i started going back to physical therapy.  Well this morning was the 2nd session and again, it went well.  The therapist had to walk me to my car though because had i walked on my own, i probably would still be trying to get to the car.  It always amazes me (altho i am NOT asking any questions and just running with it) that when walking, i am a righteous mess, but put me behind the wheel of my car and smooth sailing.  NO PROBLEMS WHATSOEVER!!!!  i swear if that is ever taken from me, I’m not sure what i would do.  I’ve said this before, i’ll say it again – in my car is the 1 place where i feel like i’m on a level playing field with everyone else and i can take on ANYONE, ANYTIME (and i will win).

Anyhoo, i got home, got out of the car, took 2 steps to the door and fell right outside the front door.  it wasn’t a bad fall – in fact, it was one of those times when i just said, “fuck it, i’ll just take this tumble and move on.” i didn’t try to fight it.

I’m inside safely and SITTING; will try to keep the movements to a minimum today 🙂

PT

i’m breathing a sigh of relief…things weren’t as bad as i orignally thought they were, so everything’s well with the world again.

i started physical therapy this morning.  I was going last year and then i don’t remember what happened, but i stopped going – started back this morning.  This place was recommended by the MS Sociey of GA so i’m hopeful (i know that there can be no guarantees).  Things went well; we’ll see how it goes this time around.  it’ll be 1 hr sessions each time – havent decided if i will go once or twice weekly yet.  she did her evaluation and as usual i tested well.  I have noticed that all my muscles when tested individually work really well and are always strong. 

  • they push down on my knees and tell me to push up and vice versa? done
  • pull up on my feet and tell me to resist and vice versa?  no problem
  • in a seated position, they try to close my legs while i push out?  piece of cake etc etc
Put all the muscles to work together and take 3 steps and that’s when everything goes to shit!  oh goody!

anyhoo, so this is the 1st day of many more to come, and as i said – i’m hopeful, so we’ll see…

Stress/Anxiety

It really is amazing how ur body reacts to stress (at least i hope it was the stress).

i messed up at work…and didn’t realize my mistake until kinda late…not too late, but it was late.  I didn’t stress out over it too much on Friday and Saturday, but last nite, i was a slight basket case and well this morning before i went downstairs – WHOA!!

one of the things that happens to me normally, when i’m nervous or anxious about anything is that i get cold – it’s quite funny actually – it could be 100 degrees and i would be freezing my ASS OFF!!  so put that together with my normal unsteadiness (heightened with cold) and u can just imagine what u get.  I mentioned before that i think i may be getting worse (hopefully it’s all in my mind); funny thing is that i only notice it during the week when i’m working.  On the weekends, i’m okay but during the week, not so much.   Am I stressed out at work?  No..not until now!  so this morning, i was just a righteous mess…

of course, i’m hoping that it was because i was stressing over the fallout at work and nothing more!

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