Tag: good attitude

oh, That Positive Attitude!!

Many people have told me, “love your attitude, u’re dealing with this really well” etc.  Hell, i wrote about it myself a little while ago – i’m coping with this disease the best i know how…but I can’t help but wonder tho, “Am i being naive/just plain stupid?”  i’m not normally 1 to wear rose coloured glasses and see life as a bunch of roses, but i refuse to let My Situation get me down – don’t think my friends will let it happen anyway.

Reading about other people’s experiences (what i may have to “look forward” to) is sometimes depressing/alarming/scary.  It makes me more determined to fight the shit and fight it hard, but i can’t help but think “is my fighting in vain?” – i’m going to PT, taking all these drugs, working out…is it all for naught?

  • sometimes i want to stop taking the drugs, of course when i miss a dose i swear i can tell the difference.  
  • I will save so much money if i give up my personal trainer – but then I cannot go to a regular gym, do anything on my own and try to walk out of there because that is just a recipe for disaster
  • My PT appts. are at 7:30am so that work is not affected (my manager gives me enuf slack as it is – so i’m trying not to take advantage of that) so of course i have to wake up at the crack of dawn to get there on time…fun fun – not so much!!
Would all of that stop the MS in its tracks?  Will they dissuade it from completely consuming me?  How much (if at all) will/could doing all those things slow the progression of the disease?  will my +ve attitude turn into a -ve one or just how long will all this positivity last?

I continue to have so many fears of what the future could hold, what could possibly happen on any given day when i wake up?  what is the MS’s plan?

so many questions with so few answers.

+ve Attitude

I’m done with my pity party…i’m extremely grateful that i’m stable.  improvement would be nice, but stability is good news!

G and I had dinner with 2 friends a couple weeks ago.  P was running late so we were limin with H and having a good time for his birthday.  All of a sudden he said to me, “U are 1 of the srongest people i know” to which i responded, “why?”.  I think i was honestly a little confused because i so try not to make the MS the center of anything.  The conversation went on and he continued that i am always smiling, never letting anything get me down and he thinks that my attitude speaks volumes…everntually i said thank you and we moved on…

an hour or so later, P showed up…good times, lots of laughter, drinks, good food and he says, “u know u are the most positive person i know”.  it was out of left field (at least i thought it was) and he too commented on how i’m always smiling, organising a good time, limin hard and just generally very positive in spite of everything.

it’s always interesting and “warm and fuzzy” to me when people tell me things like that.  i don’t think of myself as a strong person nor do i think that i’m very positive in fact a more cynical pessimist u’ll not find.   I have come to realize that i am actually dealing with the MS in the best way possible and in general i don’t let it drag me down.  Back in the days when i would say “screw u MS” and do things that i shouldn’t, the bad days might have reared their ugly heads more, but now that i know my limitations and don’t do anything stupid, they are few and far between.

so…stability is GREAT – improvement will be greatER and i’ll shout it from the rooftops, but until then I’ll take stability any day!!

Follow Me

Get the latest posts delivered to your mailbox: