Tag: canes

Taking the Plunge

allright…i give up!  I’m not going to fight it anymore…I’m throwing in the towel, biting the bullet – all of those phrases…

i’m 99.9999% sure that I’ll get the cane. I think i need to practise for sure because even tho i’m that close to getting it, i’m not that close to being convinced that i’ll be able to maneuver IT and ME all at once.

Using 1 will be better than falling more regularly than i do now and hurting myself.

D, I’ll work on the pimp cup (just for u) – can’t make any promises re: the cadillac :-)…i know u wish u were here to see for urself!

Cane…Food for Thought

So when i went for my infusion, 1 of the nurses saw me and asked me where was my cane.  She seemed to remember me coming in with a cane before.  When i told her that I didn’t use one, she said that maybe i should look into it because it would help me keep my balance.  what’s “funny” is that i’d written about my thoughts of using one the day before and then i go in and she’s telling me that it will help me.  I’m still not convinced – i’m still a little afraid.  I’m thinking it’s one more thing that I’ll have to “keep track of” when i’m walking and that could end in disaster.  maybe it’s also my pride?  maybe it’s that i’m scared because again – the progression – canes might lead to other walking aides which could eventually lead to a permanent chair.  Of course there’s always the bright side…i could get a “cool” cane; maybe different colours and styles so that i have options depending on where i’m going…

i swear it’s getting harder and harder to keep my positive attitude about this disease. 

Angst

I am beginning to believe that I experience some anxiety when i need to be out and about sometimes.  I went out Friday nite and at times i was unbelievably unsteady; had to hold on to people and everything but as soon as I got home – no problems.  it’s a pain in my ass….but…

On the flip side tho, i was out and about Saturday by myself and didn’t have any problems really.  sometimes, i wonder if a cane will help me any, but then i have a vision of me and the cane catspraddling (falling in an unladylike manner) down the sidewalk; something that i’d rather not have to ever live thru *gasp*! 

I really don’t think that a cane will help me any because i’ll just be unsteady with it too, so for now, i will just continue to hold on to somebody else when i can and walk ever so slowly/take my time so as to not keel over when i can’t.

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