Well…

My doctor’s visit didn’t really go according to MY plan.  It’s not bad news, but i havent gotten a prescription for the new drug.  UGH!!!

I have to be approved by the insurance company BEFORE i can get the drug.  I have started the process…the forms have been signed, but it will be a few weeks before I am approved (by every Tom, Dick & Harry); who knows when i’ll actually HAVE the drug in hand….again, oh well, not much i can do about this.  At least the process has started.  He also told me about an alternative to the Ampyra (in the event that i am NOT approved or the cost is astronomical) that will be cheaper and i won’t actually have to go thru any kinda approval process.  Maybe more to come on that…

I have to admit, i never went to see him regarding my walking issues.  I didn’t think that it was a sypmtom per se, just the disease progressing along it’s awful course.  Well he got to see me first hand yesterday and is concerned that i may be relapsing!  Oh Lord…really?  As a result, he has sent me for a brain/spine and thoracic MRI; a brain MRI is long and torturous enuf, I wonder what all of them put together must be like.  Not looking forward to it really…but again, what can i really do?  The other thing he informed me is that i am suffering from Spasticity.  I’ve heard of/read up on Spasticity before, but i thought that it manifested itself as jerky movements accompanied by pain…didn’t realize that the stiffness/weakness that i suffer from is also part of it.  To help with that, he has given me some muscle relaxants.  He also mentioned my going on steroids to help with it, but i told him that i’d rather NOT do that, so will try the drugs (i have no problem taking drugs) combined with PT and hopefully, things will get better. 

• Where the hell did I pick up this disease? 
• How am i the “lucky one” to “pick up” this disease?
• Why me?

Soooo many questions that i have no answers to…it is what it is, i guess.  I didn’t ask for it and can’t return it so i just have to deal with it!